Thursday, March 15, 2012

I've loved you from the start

Isn't this song adorable?! So tonight I went to one of my friend's wedding receptions and it was gorgeous/slightly depressing haha. As I was talking to her, he was looking at her with such an adoring look and his hand was just around her waist like he didn't ever want to let her go. You could literally feel the love between them (I sound like a cornball I know- it's fine haha). I am so excited for her! As I was driving home the above song came on the radio and it was so cute. As I looked around me tonight I felt like I was just surrounded by people in love- how did everyone find someone who fits them so perfectly? And how did I somehow miss this boat?!?! In all honesty, I know that my Heavenly Father has a plan for me. I know that everything comes in the right time and I am grateful for the opportunity to grow in patience and while this post is really dramatic (sorry about that), I am really happy in the stage I am at, just some times I get a little impatient, but I do love this stage. I love feeling so carefree (in regards to my time being mine) and I have so much fun with my roommates and this time of life. Anyway, to sum up my feelings today, I love my life- I love this stage and I love the journey we go through that molds us into who we are and can become, but it doesn't change the fact that my heart still aches to have someone love me so much for me- for every part of me and my personality and my heart aches to be a wife and a mother. While my dreams are to obtain a law degree in addition to my bachelors, the thing I look forward to the most in my life is being a full-time mom and just spending all day/every day at home with my children cleaning the house that's filled with people I love, doing laundry, COOKING FOR MORE THAN JUST ME!!!!, getting woken up at night because the baby is crying and just wants to be held, driving my SUV full of all my kids chattering and being crazy (because let's be honest my children will probably be just like me and have way too much energy and not enough attention span for their own good) and spending eternity with my best friend. I know that this stage of life will come but sometimes it feels out of reach and I feel like I'm not going to ever grow up and reach it (if that makes any sense) haha anyway, one of my fortunes from my fortune cookie one time was, "Good things come to those who wait. Be patient." It was during a particularly difficult time of my life and I've kept it in my phone case ever since to remind me that good things are worth waiting for. "So, um yeah"...

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